Adoption Update

Adoption #2 {or is that #3 & 4?} is going well. The girls are both legally free as of Friday. We waited a month since the judge ruled Dad's rights terminated for him to have a chance to appeal and he did not. So we mailed in the rest of our paperwork for our adoption update to be done. They'll be out to our home yet again and then it will be the waiting game if we have to have background checks and fingerprints done again.

I think Annah and Viktoriya {as well as the rest of us} will benefit from the finality of an adoption. They know they aren't going anywhere but they are so thrilled to have our last name and make it final. They are such sweet girls and I'm so happy that God has knitted our family together in this way. I would've never imagined it and someday's I do still wonder what He was thinking!

Somedays I think they would be better off with a family with less children. And when I have to miss one of the boy's soccer games to go to a sibling visit with the girls I wonder if the boys are suffering. In fact last night I poured my heart out to the Lord asking Him if He was sure. {I'm laughing under my breath right now, so as to not awake 2 little girls}. He made it clear with the way He brought Annah here. We could never do to her what her previous {Christian} foster family did to her. And then with Viktoriya, having Nana and Sharon both support us in such a real way when they had previously encouraged us to not take on any more children! And that was while we still had Teighly!

So in my physical body, when the wears and tears of this world feel heavy, and when I see A & V's brothers still in need of a home, I am discouraged. I think there is no way a good nuturing Christian home will be found for every child and every child deserves one! And I kneel by my bed crying and wondering why God allows our world to be like this.

It is then, and always then, when I'm at my lowest that He meets me, covers me with His presence and His peace. He gently reminds me I am only called to be faithful to what He has given me today. I woke with a new excitement and energy to parent the ones He has given me. They are the ones I can pour myself into; I cannot burden myself with every child I see or know of. I have to focus on those He has entrusted to my care. And I must take the time to be filled up each and every day.

While I cannot be consumed by the needs of everyone I can still be on my knees for them. Please...pray for these two sweet boys who deserve parents, and a loving forever home.